PSYCHIATRIST
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: ACTUALLY THE TRUTH IS EASY MAN IS THE DIFFICULTY
Topic: ACCEPTANCE NOT OF ALL
The truth is a hard but ever apparent enitity. Every human being has to accept truth and sometimes this truth whatever it maybe cause an emotional breakdown for most, it can manifest itself as addiction, abnormality, depravity, or belief. The truth is you are owned by your actions no matter what your status or position...what you do is who you are...I am the truth, I have accepted all that I am and surrender to faith in God not because I do not know God or because it is easy but simply because I have proof. I know what is true, my Mother, Margaret Jones, is a drug addict. She doesnt love me she loves drugs and will do anything to keep her fix...herione alive. Presently she is pimping Government Agents/Informants and Psychiatrist whom believe they can break me by using her.....it doesnt matter what is true to the Govermenment Agents, they are lost in survival which means they are confused. The truth is my Mother nor her actions can hurt me I have cried those tears, but what is awful about my Mother situation is herself destruction. I mean guys they have her doing any and everything for these drugs, sitting in smoked filled rooms, ingesting anything doing whatever, pride, self-preservation have fallen to getting high. I close my eyes at night and say one prayer please let me survive whatever harm these lost confused men decide to inflict upon me, but I sleep, it's almost scary because I know harm is imminent yet I sleep. This is not so for my Family members, they have to medicate in order to sleep....a lot of Goverment officials medicate to sleep, but lock, stock and barrel based on psychology and the advise of psychiatrist FBI Officials and other Law Enforcement officials beleive ignorance, depravity, betrayal and harm will lead to breakdown and violence using my Mother, Margaret Jones, it thier ACE, the Wild Joker. I say this to these fools, you are fools, my Mother is playing you like a brand new record, which is sweet to her soul. She, my Mother has the best of both Worlds her fix and the knowledge of where her child is so we know right now whom is being pimped. (As I was typing this information at the Beaverton Library, an so called employee by the name of Jill Adams walked over and removed blockage I place in the disk and Zip drive, blocking these drives assist me in keeping my documents has authenthicate as possible. Since I do not know this Jill Adams and not one person has asked me about the disk drive we know as I type this FBI and Law Enforcement officials are illgally utilizing thier badges/position to interupt my blogging. And yes she did threaten to kick me out of the Beaverton Library when I replaced the pencil with paper apparently I can't place paper in the disk drives either. But why? The disk drives download through out my blogging and this is why a block them, why would I want to download? This is interuption, disruption and harrasment...I wonder if Jill Adams is and FBI employee or Law Enforcement Officer or just maybe a foolish woman whom has no idea whom she is protecting....A woman whom would protect man whom rape children, well we know where she will end up.......) So back to my entry on Psychiatry which was so rudely interupted by Jill Adams without request are communication nterupting my blogging. This harm (By FBI Officials) my Family is enduring has devastated them, and I personally do not expect their actions to be able to sustain the constant attack which they have to endure. Everyone of my Family members have been set-up and harrassed by Law Enforcement officials and this only occurred after 1997 when I filed a complaint against FBI and US DOJ employees. I have and am aware for the last 10 years and made great decisions concerning the Pychological and physical attack against my person....Johnathan Perry, a former Payroll Supervisor at Herbalife said " Belinda tell the truth always be honest" he knew of the FBI tactics his sister works for Law Enforcement and she schooled him, so I have been honest and kept myself from any sort of impropriety or criminality, but human nature is human nature, and what I wouldnt do other could not stop themselves from doing. I have watched FBI officials attempt to set me up and lie on me and each time I have protected myself by disclosure or ommission....I contacted Law Enforcement, I wrote all kinds of letters, making sure I would be able to substantiate all my action. Family and Friends were foolish and they are in jeopardy based on intimidation and coersion. I am also Blessed and Chosen by God, it is not all about how brilliant or smart I am, I trust God's Word and know If it is his Will I am not about to stop God's Will, I am not a fool, but for the most part man is very foolish, so I am blessed, my family has fallen prey to the Foolish Rogue behavior of Law Enforcement Officials. Yet, this fact is 10 years old and each and every time they have attempted to use my Family members it has back-fired. The FBI worked hard as hell to keep the fact my nieces were molested from me, because my Family members new the FBI was trying to set me up for molestation and then all coicidentally the molestation occurs, not one child division service person has contacted me and I gave them all my information...you would think they would call and asked if I knew anything... THE FBI IS FUCKED THEY HAVE HUNG THEMSELVES, BASED ON PSYCHOLOGY AND DEPRAVITY...FBI officials set up the molestation and then they were going to blame me but stupid new I could not be blamed God, is such much better than man, and each and everytime I was taken out of harms way, but depravity doesnt just turn itself off, these Governmental officials make money on molestation it is a tool. The bottom line is whom is advising these Law Enforcement officials, it would amaze you whom is advising them; Professionals, the best professionals, they can find, Psychiatrist, Attorneys, Doctors, Scientist, every effort which can be bought is facilitating the harm these Law Enfocement officials are attempting to imposed on my living. Why do they fail, I am better proctected and better advised through Faith. On this very day I withstood a planned event, which was orchestrated down to the minutest details. The game we will call it is to use my Mother to cause an Fight with a lie or some sort of frivoluos mistake. The languange is always profane, and as many NIGGERS as possible are used, and threats...and I am supposed to react to this barrage....An attacker aways is blocked right....NO, I walk away or ridicule the act....But my evidence is overwhelming and so now FBI officials are trying to get it out of my Mothers house so it can be ruined or destroyed....I have evidence everywhere in Storage I have tons of documents and several news stations have copies....it not possible but they still try this Morning all my belonging where thrown out of a closet not even near my Mom, and strolled all over the floor for no reason but confrontation....I walked away....I will always walk away...My Mother is not the problem she is a drug addict which makes her a fools and I will never be destroyed by a fool. So, what is so compelling about the game, what do I react too....The FBI always makes sure the behavior, the utter orchestration occurs after some kindness on my part....which is betrayal and even God is Angered by betrayal...But I am aware and I do speak my piece but I leave, I get out of there...So are you Wondering why I live with my Mother....I cant live anywhere else. I have tried shelters, I have tried getting an apartment and each and every time Law Enforcement Officials illegally interfere to the point of impersonation...Yes I have been told serveral time the appartment is rented and see a sign hanging for weeks after the fact....Am I scared or tired, not at all because I know something the FBI and Law Enforcement Officials know all over the Country....I dont go away and they will spend the next 100 years following me everywhere. I will always be here battling wrong for justice. I was listening and will always listen it is the road to truth and justice.